does it make a difference

by lydiasee

    after spending the several days around christmas alone, save for a few random hours when i went out to get a pack of smokes, or talked on the phone, i really am reminded of why i avoid the ‘holiday season.’ i know it’s sad, people tell me as they give the sympathetic head tilt, the ‘how unfortunate it is for you to not have somewhere to be on christmas’ look which is somehow supposed to make me feel better but ends up making me feel worse.

well for starters, even though i have celebrated christmas from childhood, i was born a jew, and have never really experienced the magic of christmas like most children. in addition, i don’t really celebrate the birth of christ, the miracle of Hanukkah, etc. and if i did, it wouldn’t be about giving people presents. the claim most people make as a counter is that it’s all about taking the time out of your daily life to spend with family and exchanging gifts is simply a symbol of how much you care about them/an excuse to treat your family and friends on an occasion that is not their birthday. however, by that logic, couldn’t these kind of interactions occur on any day of the year? not the most stressful, highly traveled, busiest, most expensive time of year? people have seemingly lost sight of the spiritual associations with the holidays and purely focus on the gift-giving, money-centered part of it.

that said, i spent christmas day with my dog, snuggled up, watching movies and reading books. i exchanged gifts and holiday cards with my family and friends prior to the holiday rush, and alleviated a massive amount of potential stress because of my own foresight.  is that anti-christmas? do i get the sympathetic-head-tilt-vote?

maybe someday if i have kids it will be different, but until then, i could not imagine a more sublime way to spend a national holiday.