take it all if you want

it has been an intense recent journey. sometimes i find that i don’t know the difference between being true to myself and being true to those i love. sometimes i find myself relying on others to make choices for me.

sometimes i feel like i am caught in a web.

i have been thinking recently that it’s about time for me to realize my actual potential as a human being. or at least scratch the surface of it. i am sick of existing on this motivationless plane of blah, taking what is given, reciprocating but not really feeling it.. i think i have kind of been numb for a few years, enjoying, but numb. true to myself, but artificially motivated, in a completely innocent, but nontheless harmful way

~ by lydiasee on January 7, 2008.